Argonath RPG - A World of its own
Argonath RPG Community => Speakerbox => Welcome! => Topic started by: The_Wolf on August 24, 2009, 04:08:28 pm
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Here I am, mates, willing to share what has happend to me in the past couple of weeks...
First of all, I had some bad experience in real life with the possibility of becoming a father (alcohol makes you forget some times), even thought I always check those things, this time I was very very drunk and I have done something stupid... However (long live contraceptives) the problem did not come after me and everything was okay, but even having this in mind - I was still depressed and worried as shit, I mean I am 18 years old and I am not even close to being a father...
After that came the second problem - troubles at work. My boss trusts me a lot, since I have been working with him from 3 years already, but this year there was a newcommer in staff, whom decided he has to play the role of my executive commander and one day (after the first event occured) I was very pissed and we had a little verbal fight... Right after he ran out of words, he decided to hit me and then we had another fight, this time with far more damage for both. However, he left work (got fired) and I was the one who was left - my chief was very disappointed and almost threw me out as well, but I managed to stay and after a thousand apologized I cleared that problem out too, fortunately.
Then, the most heavy loss for me I am trying to live over, but I still cannot. Yesterday, my grandfather died from cancer on the prostate... I was holding his hand for over 1 hour the night before, I was staring at him and tears fell from my eyes, as he was staring at me. He could not talk, he could only spin his eyes around the room and showing emotions by movement in his head.He was a man I felt deep respect for, I always loved him and liked his actions. When I was smaller, I lived for a couple of years at his place and he razed me and tought me a lot of things about life and how it is, how it should be and etcetera. He thought me how to be a man and how to take things with dignity, not allowing others to crush me, fighting and achieving my goals... This is why he was one of my favourite people in real life, and now it is very hard for me to live over this tragedy...
I do believe that I might have been an asshole before those things happen, but I have noticed myself that after those events, I have changed a lot and I am not the same person as I was before...
I also hope you could understand how I feel now, I don't wish those things to happen to any of you, because it's really hard, believe me...
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Damn, I feel sorry for your grandpa. At least he's in a better place now.
Stress makes us all act like assholes and it seems you aren't an exception. It takes a lot of strength to apologise publicly.
Good luck IRL, hope you clear your shit out.... I was close to becoming a father too so I know how you're feeling.
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Wow legend, I wish you good luck in real life, i know how you feel, i lost my mother due cancer..
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Well, Sad about your grandpa. :(
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Damn, I feel sorry for your grandpa. At least he's in a better place now.
Stress makes us all act like assholes and it seems you aren't an exception. It takes a lot of strength to apologise publicly.
Good luck IRL, hope you clear your shit out.... I was close to becoming a father too so I know how you're feeling.
Pretty much sums it all up..I can imagine how you're feeling, you're a good guy, Legend. We all have times like this in our lives and it really does take a lot to publicly spill your heart out like this. I'm sorry for your loss, feel better mate and good luck, remember, keep your head up. :)
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Your grandpa must be a true legend.
Good Luck with everything, I am sure it will be alright.
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Wow...Legend...that....explains alot. You were acting a bit unlike yourself on MSN when I was talking to you the other night but...I had no idea...
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Legend I know that the last couple of months you have been acting much more stressed as when we first met you, but that is what trouble in real life can do to you.
I am sorry for your loss, and I hope that you will use the time to reflect on some of the recent happenings and understand why people told you certain things.
Everyone has their time in life, and for everyone there comes a time they are no longer physical present.
But by remembering his lessons and keeping the good memories you have of him, he will live forever and will be able to protect you when needed.
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Really sad to hear all this Legend, I hope you can come out of this a stronger person, good luck with everything mate. ;)
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Feel free to take a break, you probably need one mate.
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Sad to hear that about your grandpa Legend, but your a fighter, so im sure you will get throught and continue to be the great guy you really are.
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Legend.. you're honestly one of the friendliest friends I have ever come across. You manage to cheer someone up when they're feeling like the world's shit is on their shoulders.
Unfortunatley, today, we get the chance to repay the favour.
I wish the very, very, very best for you from the bottom of my heart. No matter how tough the times are, no matter how emotionally hurt you are, stay strong buddy.
Your pal, Wash.
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Yes its really hard, just keep fighting, dont give in and dont give up, its just a Part-Time troubles, it shall take part in your life, its somehow good trust me, but as violet said, you need a break, you need to regain your strenght and collect your powers back together, hope everything will be fine for you, wish you best of luck, take good care!
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Really sorry to see what all you have must been through lately. It is good tho that you can talk about it and not keeping everything inside of you. I hope you have family near to you and i seriously will pray powers to you to go through these hard times. Really sorry for you lost but keep in mind that he is in better place now. I know it is hard to accept that he went away now but just remember all good what you had and his legacy will live forever.
You have my support and prays man
Your friend
Dexter
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Don't worry Legend, I too have been through such incidents. Yours were spaced out over a week, now imagine going through stuff like that for a period of half a year.
I guess you're back now? If so, welcome back. Glad to see you active again. Don't worry, the Lord is with you every step of the way, trust in him. ;)
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Our relatives will always live in our hearts, no matter where they are. Stay strong.
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Good Luck in your real life Legend.. I'm really sorry to hear for your Loss... i've lost my grandfather 2 years ago with same way. holding his hand the last minutes he was on life. :cry: :cry:
Now i got only 2 Grandmothers (as my other grandfather is dead due to cancer too.) and my Mother's Grandfather is alive as well. and he is 105 years old.... to those who dont believe me, PM me and i can send you pics...... :(
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R.I.P :pop: @ your Grandpa.
Regards,
TheRock.
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I'm sorry for your loss, hope you solve this out. May your grandpa rest in peace.
Good luck, stay strong, mate.
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Hm, Although i don't know you THAT Much, from forums you seem to be a great guy. So now i'm sure you can handle all your problem. What doesn't kill us, make us stronger. So become stronger and face all problems as you should.
Good luck in real life.
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nice event i will be present! :war: :cop:
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nice event i will be present! :war: :cop:
What the hell? I suggest you actually read the topic instead of just reading the title and guessing what the topic is about.
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nice event i will be present! :war: :cop:
Erhm OMG WTF?......
Dude, this is a real life happening, something what really hurt him.
And you make a joke about it, this is not ingame...this is happened IRL.
Legend, I know you as a great guy - you've passed a lot in your life I see.
But one thing I am sure mate, you can do this - stay strong and everything will come to a good end.
I'm sorry about your grandpa, my condolences (word is right?)
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nice event i will be present! :war: :cop:
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Well, what can I say - you are welcome to travel to Bulgaria and attend to the funeral...
Thanks for the support given guys, you're great! And yes Nexxt, the word is right.
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Wow, good luck with everything man! sorry to hear about your grandpa :(
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nice event i will be present! :war: :cop:
wat.
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Wolf, remember the Lord is always with you.
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I'm very sorry for what happened to your grandpa. I also know what it's like when something like that happens.
My grandpa on my mothers side is currently suffering from breast cancer. (And for those who don't know, as I get this a lot, men can get breast cancer too. http://www.cancer.org/docroot/CRI/content/CRI_2_4_1X_What_is_male_breast_cancer_28.asp (http://www.cancer.org/docroot/CRI/content/CRI_2_4_1X_What_is_male_breast_cancer_28.asp))
Hopefully nothing will happen to him as he is a great guy, an old fella but has served in long wars and does a lot for his community even in his condition.
However, my grandpa on my fathers side died when I was young. He was a great guy. He loved the game of golf and played in professional leagues. He used to take me out to the playgrounds and parks and places every week. At least you were able to be there by your grandpa's side. I remember waking up early (I don't remember what age I was, but I was quite young.) I walked out into the living room and I saw my dad crying on the phone because the hospital had just called saying he was dead. And now that I think of it, I think that's almost the only time, I have ever seen my dad cry... Maybe some other times but not a lot.
I really hope things work out for you with your job and that your family will recover from the loss. Even though we must move on, we can still pay our respects. :)
Your friend,
-Mike