Argonath RPG - A World of its own
GTA:SA => SA:MP - San Andreas Multiplayer => SA:MP General => Topic started by: Leon. on July 06, 2011, 04:27:43 pm
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Yeah. This is another depressing TL;DR directed towards the community I have wronged. If you don't like it, leave. There may be somewhat strong language here.
I'd like to start off by saying that I've been dragging my life like trying to push bullshit through thick branches. I nearly failed a language class that is my first and primary language that I have excelled in during displays of intelligence (though the grade has barely anything to do with language capabilities - more so your ability to do 50 projects over the course of one week...), grew an unwanted dependency to a drug that I normally only occasionally used as a mood booster in small amounts, and all kinds of shit. Ever since school ended, my step father took it upon himself to decide that I don't deserve it despite how much f**king work I put into just to hold my grade up enough to pass, therefore he has practically enslaved me. We're renovating, it's mid-summer, our weather is f**king retarded, and I'm a slave of the household. Hur-f**king-ray.
Not to mention, I've had my best friends stolen from me by my dickhead brother who decided to talk shit about me only to steal him. I turned my back for five seconds and I lose a friend because of an asshole's greed.
I'm sorry to say that I've become what I hate. I'm the asshole who takes out all of his real life problems on the people around him. I hate it when people do that. I guess you could say I've come to hate what I become. I took it out on some of you guys. Normally, I'm this happy-go-lucky guy without a care in the world. Lately, one little spark inflames the bullshit. Some of you, MANY of you might not have even realized it, but I had problems, guys. Lots. I've straighted up most things for now.
Now, for the more person apologies. Forgive me if I cannot remember all of you specific individuals. I've been an amnesiac for quite some time now, and although I'm almost fully recovered, I may not be able to remember everything. If I forget you, it's not because you're not important enough.
I'll start with you, Gird3r.
I've had my fair share of arguments with you. We have conflicting interests and it's just something not really worth fighting over. I called you names, disrespected you, and... heh, might as well have tried to shit in your mouth to keep you quiet, but man, I take it all back. I want to take it all back. I didn't mean to try to split your friendships or anything. Truly, you're a pretty good guy. The only thing I hate about you is you have a nearly perfected grasp of the English language - that's except for your "an" LOL! No offense intended, just a little inside joke.
Not too long ago, when I was in-game, I had a lovely roleplay with you. I loved the hell out of our Devil-worshiping roleplay. Yeah, that was me. Xivilai_Gvardia. I got a good taste of old-school roleplay. It sucked for our characters that we were on the losing side of the holy vs unholy war, but it was still fun as hell trying to murder Father Bastard. We should expand that roleplay to some sort of cult or whatever.
By the way, that wasn't me trolling you on YouTube. I shared my account with some douche bag who likes to crash my reputation. He no longer has access and he is no longer a friend of mine.
Grz(insertrandomlyplacedcharactershere)
To be honest, I don't really like the way you try to get your points across. I've always come to think of you as an asshole, but the truth is, you're not. Away from the arguments and all the other bullshit, you're a playful, cool guy. And I like that. I like guys who can leave the day behind and just relax. I'm sorry I came on so hard to your tactics so hot-headedly.
Second to last, certainly not least, Aragorn.
Man, you and I have been anything but friends. We were either neutral or below. Our interests conflict severely, but when your fuse isn't sparked, you're also a pretty cool guy. Believe it or not, you're one of those guys I'd sit with around a table, with my feet up on there drinking some sort of our favorite beverages just chilling and chatting about the days gone by. I don't know where to start for you. I've wronged you so many times. For example, my recent forum ban. I did nothing but piss you off beyond belief. I can't do anything about the past, and the most I can say is I'm sorry.
And lastly, absolutely not least, the server as a whole.
I'm sorry I can't list all of your names specifically. I've always been bad at putting names to faces (shit, there was this one time where this girl came out of nowhere and told me her name, Ellie, though I FORGOT HER FACE! SHE WAS SO HOOOT), and with the added time factor and a sprig of amnesia, that just makes it even worse. I guarantee I've wronged more of you, but I can't tell you why, how, and when. This may sound half-assed, but the very most I can do is say I'm sorry for whatever I've done to any of you guys personally.
Will I be back? I don't know. It's up to those who do the unbanning. I hope I can meet some new friends and hopefully start over for those I have wronged. Wish me the best of luck, for I do the same for you.
~Leon/Öivilai
Post-edit: Something I forgot to mention. I'm done arguing on the forums 24/7. It's done nothing but lead me to trouble and make me look like a dick.
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What can I say Leon, to share this information got some balls. I am proud of you mate, well written and good that you go out and make an public apology to the guys you have had your conflicts with.
I hope you will return to the same old guy I met back in my Argonath journey who spread joy and laugh, but I can agree that your behaviour changed sometime. You know that you did many wrongs but yet continued to do them.
But it's good that you have realized your wrong doings and want to do better things.
Good luck and cheers mate from Murt da big fat balla ;)
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I'll always love you even if it's just because I'm on your forum profile.
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u use drugs IRL Cephalectomy?
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u use drugs IRL Cephalectomy?
Occasionally.
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Leon i really don't like what kind of music you listen, maybe that life who you "enjoying" become you on this situation...
Buy anyway you are very cool guy and i wish you good luck to back on Argonath :)
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Leon i really don't like what kind of music you listen
Not many people do. Metalheads are far but many.
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Those RL issues truly were not visible. Good luck with it all and maybe the major part of the bad things may become good again.
\m/
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''Wanna argue? No.'' - I am proud of you!
Now drive over me to see if it hurts.. :cool:
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''Wanna argue? No.'' - I am proud of you!
It used to be "I like to argue. Wanna argue?"
Now drive over me to see if it hurts.. :cool:
*revs monster truck engine*
Ready!?
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*revs monster truck engine*
Ready!?
Ready! :lol:
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Ready! :lol:
*sirens are heard in the background whilst the dead body of crook lies along the bloodied double-yellow lines*
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:)
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Seems like a truly good move, really! I hope you can stay this way though, if you come back!
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Seems like a truly good move, really! I hope you can stay this way though, if you come back!
To be quite honest, I'm not 100 percent sure if I even deserve to come back. Hell, I directly insulted an owner. If this were 1300, I would have my throat cut on the spot. Hypothetically speaking, anyway.
Post Merge: July 06, 2011, 06:44:38 pm
:)
The gesture is appreciated, hot stuff.
*fishy face*
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Hang in there bud.
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Respect to you, that took some guts (and time!).
I haven't really seen it much myself, but glad to hear you're turning over a new leaf, as it were. See you around!
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Haters be gone. Leon rises up again.
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and time!
Always the worst part.
Haters be gone. Leon rises up again.
O Fortuna (Carmina Burana) (Lyrics) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BNWpZ-Y_KvU#)
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I always liked you since you're one of those guys who can speak for yourself whether it is for good or bad in situations. I find you reliable and an awesome individual.
Nicely done topic with great and honest sentences.
Welcome back.
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You never did something to me, since I always loved ya..
You are a funny guy and hopefully a guy who doesn't lie..
Goodluck, I hope to see you back in game.. :D
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Let me state a few things here. Leon is one of my closest friends I've made on Argonath. And if you want to judge him or anything, you should think twice, because he's really not any of those people you should be judging, but one of those you should be looking up to. I mean, yes, he's getting banned... but haven't most of us? He likes to joke a lot, and put a smile on people's faces. Of course, some people can't deal with that, and just don't understand him... but hey, they're called haters for a reason.
If I'm still welcomed in the community, without a doubt Leon is.
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:bye:
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Conclusion:
Chamillionaire - Ridin' ft. Krayzie Bone (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CtwJvgPJ9xw#)
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hopefully a guy who doesn't lie..
Lying, to me, is just as bad as murder and is a strike directly to someone's honor so hard that the word honor might as well not be in said someone's vocabulary. Would I tell the truth if it cost me my life? Depends if the force taking my life is good or evil. ;)
Post Merge: July 07, 2011, 02:41:30 am
I mean, yes, he's getting banned... but haven't most of us? He likes to joke a lot, and put a smile on people's faces.
To be honest, I think my goal in life is to make people smile. Just once.
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Congratulations on your unban bro :cool:
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You'll always have respect from my heart, bro.
Peace.
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I'm sorry I came on so hard
THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID :hah:
Good luck, hope we can argue exchange opinions about stuff soon ;)
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You were always my favorite arguer. :D
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Good luck Leon I trust that you'll find a good path to take. ;)
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THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID :hah:
DUDE LOL
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You were always my favorite arguer. :D
I feel insulted.
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Will I be back? I don't know. It's up to those who do the unbanning.
I dunno what to answer on your topic... The biggest part of my heart is sure its for unban...
I cannot trust you, as you know, cos you never even showed me where should I trust you...
And I am also sure you cannot be changed...
Anyways good luck with unban whatever it was... I wash my hands here, as I am not ready to give a new credits of trust... Gandalf will consider it, and I am sure you will be unbanned... But I am telling honestly and openly - there will not be my vote, so do not thank me if you will get unban...
Let me tell you some things... When I was teenager I was a really bad guy... I was holding under control all institute (univercity)... I was fighting others who pretended on my positions and was laughing at those who were ugly/weak or dumbasses... Cos I had everything: brains (golden attest (all high points)), good physical conditions (captain of the institute team), standard appearance (I had no problems with girls), friends (yeah yeah even such asshole had friends)...
I liked to be bad... Disrespectful and ignorant...
And as I said I still had friends... Who of cos were telling very good words about me, covering me... But even that time I knew that having friends does not mean I am friendly... Does not mean that if 6 people like me, that all others should like me too, otherwise they are mothertrucking idiots...
So I suggest you to listen to it, project to your own life and think twice before making an idea, that if one or 10 guys like you that all others should do the same, or they are idiots that do not like you...
Wanna changes - look at yourself in a mirror, repeat all actions you do, all your looks, all your jests... And I am sure you will either laugh at the guy in the mirror, or you will be shocked... People sometimes do not understand how crappy they do look with all their ambitions...
Thats all I can say...
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I feel insulted.
Lol.
He's already been unbanned.
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Now I know I have more reason to love you guys. :)
But I am telling honestly and openly - there will not be my vote, so do not thank me if you will get unban...
Hey man, I don't blame you one bit ;)
I hope we can start over.
Say... I heard you like some forms of metal :D
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Yes this is an very late reply, I have been extremly busy. And still are.
Well, if you wanna change, show it to the community that you are willing to.
As for our conflicts, I know very well that you utterly despise the fact that my english is like if someone put an tomato into the mouth and tried to speak, but honestly. If I can get atleast some of my points across, then that could count for something.
I had no idea that you were that person when I decided to do that Devil thing rp.
You can consider us neutral, now i'm off to browse around the forums to get up-to-date with what's happening in Argonath. And then i'm off again to try to find an job.
Goodluck.
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One of the few who believed me when I was banned for weapon hacking.
To be honest, I think my goal in life is to make people smile. Just once.
:)
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It takes balls for a man to share this information. I'm proud of you, Luigi.
Knowing your IRL background, I wouldn't be suprised. After everything you went through, I'm suprised you still managed to hold enough sense to want to fix your problems, along with the problems you've become.
Let me tell you one thing I have learned about this Argonath Community.
We are like one big family. We have our joys, our sorrows, our goals, our conflicts, and our retarded moments... yet we are still like a family. As long as you do not truly forsake us, an Argonathian will always be there for you, as anyone else who has become one of us.
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You took the right way.