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GTA:SA => SA:MP - San Andreas Multiplayer => SA:MP General => Topic started by: Ayden on December 13, 2011, 08:29:55 pm

Title: [Requesting Topic Locked - Thanks] Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 13, 2011, 08:29:55 pm: Dear Citizens and Administration of Argonath.
You are now hearing from me after over a half month of absence. I have chosen to do this because of something I feel I should, and not because someone told me to or anything like that. This me, talking for myself.
Everything I did back then was dumb judgment formed beforehand which I should not even have thought of getting myself into. This is NOT an excuse though! I take full responsibility of my actions and negative attitude and behavior towards the community. I was treated with nothing but respect and honor, but my eho hit and spoiled everything in a split second. If I would not be filled with regrets, I would not be at this point.
Now, what I thought some months ago was that everything I said or did would simply be solved through time. But that idea was far away from right. After I got banned, I began to apologize in private to the developers of this community, mainly Aragorn, as he was the one who I appeared to have something weird against to. Yes, I did have something against him back then, I fully admit that, but like I said before, it was lame judgment made beforehand and just stupidity. I was dumb and I was not thinking rational at all. Moreover, I have been trying to show my respect to him after I gained some clear perspective at the situation, however, I have not really managed to get in thought with him. But that does not really matter now. The reason I am here now, is not to gain an unban, but instead to apologize to the Argonath Universe. I have done bad things to some of you, and my previous actions was most likely coming from my anger outside Argonath. This was not right at all, and I feel terrible as none of you deserved what I did. My ego and selfishness spoiled friendships that was built over long periods and led to the fact that I suddenly began to disrespect people who never did anything wrong to me or anything else.
This is also especially directed to the clan, White Shadows, which took me in, and let me be a part of their amazing establishment, which they had worked for through years. They were affected too big time, and this is where I feel the most shame. They have always been a royal and respectful clan over the years, and what happens then? A childish stabbing b**ch comes along who tries to play smart with his pointless confrontations. And I still managed to stick with the negative attitude and negative thinking even though they were punished because of me! I have no clue how I can make things rights, but for now, I just hope from the bottom of my heart that they will receive this apology.
I have chosen not to give you the I have changed speech, as I feel that there is only one right thing I can do, and that is to write this apology. It has been a long time since you have heard from me, and it is easier to ask for forgiveness than it is ti get the permission to apologize, therefore I can understand if you choose to lock this topic. I would like to state and underline, that my intentions of this is not to get unbanned but simply to express myself to all of those who were affected by me in a negative way. The way I see it, the perfect last word is an apology, so instead of saying please, I am now saying sorry.
Sorry to each and every one of you!

Best Regards,
Ayden
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Antonio. on December 13, 2011, 08:39:52 pm: Quote from: Ayden on December 13, 2011, 08:29:55 pm
I am not saying sorry.
Mistake?
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ben. on December 13, 2011, 08:42:06 pm: <3
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Jack White on December 13, 2011, 09:04:53 pm: someone wants ur bizz, wait a little before coming back plzz
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Que on December 13, 2011, 09:58:12 pm: Quote from: Jack White on December 13, 2011, 09:04:53 pm
someone wants ur bizz, wait a little before coming back plzz
His business got state owned.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 13, 2011, 10:02:09 pm: Quote from: Antonio. on December 13, 2011, 08:39:52 pm
Mistake?
Corrected.

Quote from: Jack White on December 13, 2011, 09:04:53 pm
someone wants ur bizz, wait a little before coming back plzz
I believe I would ask for a complete removal of my account so I can start on a fresh if the authorities ever choose to unban me. Right now, I am just hoping for the best which does not invovle an unban.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Dexter on December 13, 2011, 11:35:30 pm: Really do not know your case but after reading your text couple things came to my mind.

It is not wrong to disagree with someone but way you are showing it makes the difference. You can state your thoughts but state them polite way and make sure your facts are right.

About ruining your friendships with some childish act is not cool tho. Friends are one of the most important thing what you can have and should not ever be taken lightly. I really hope you can fix those relationships.

And as this all seems to be caused from problems outside of Argo..Well in all fairness I would say that you can let it out of course. But just choose to who and how. I have been hearing many members of Argonath on my time here. I call them friends but yeah sometimes they do get angry. But never start to flame me or anything. They know they can talk to me and that I want to help them so probably they do not want to throw out one prson who is listening to them. I don't know if you already have friend like this but if not you should. And never let that person to go away.

That's all
Peace
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 14, 2011, 10:50:40 am: I appreciate your well written thought, Dexter. It does not really have anything to do with disagreements. I was just being foolish. Yes, there is freedom of speech. But I crossed the line by far. Especially regarding my actions towards Aragorn who were actually being friendly to me. I just looked aside that as I just spit stuff out that was not true about him. False accusations. I just could not let all the little things that had no point go. Over my time on the community, I did get to know many people who I spent time talking and chilling with over MSN. It was definetly immature of me to throw all of that away because of some things that were not even related to them. Like you said, I sure do hope I can manage to fix those relationships, but for right now, there is nothing much I can do but to write what I have already written.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Murt on December 14, 2011, 11:15:05 am: "Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from."

Next time, don't get overwhelmed by your emotions. People can get offended, next time take out your anger on the boxing bag. Punch that sometimes :D
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Frank_Hawk on December 14, 2011, 11:38:21 am: "The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." - Mohandas Gandhi
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Paco on December 14, 2011, 02:50:16 pm: If God can forgive, then we can also forgive :)
Ayden, inside you're a good guy. And I, myself, know it. Even if you've caused some small troubles to White Shadows, you're still a shadow. I am very happy to see you here mate! :D
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Jack White on December 14, 2011, 03:16:56 pm: Quote from: Que on December 13, 2011, 09:58:12 pm
His business got state owned.
Dayuuuuuum
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Witchking on December 14, 2011, 03:26:38 pm: Why would a removeal of the account be a fresh start? Poeple already Know you from 3 Different Names, why would a 4th be a way to make the community Forgive you? Offcourse not. What you shall do is to Stop Ask People for Forgiveness Here and sit and wait for someone to tell you make an unban Request face it as a Man of Honor and Admit your mistakes in the unban section if you wish to play again.

Post a Unban Request in the unban section Telling your story how you feeling and make sure to tell why you deserve a Unban shows your regret enough Argonath dont hate, argonath dont punish Forever we Are the land of opportunities and forgiveness.

And Everyone Deserves that, then there is two different kind of rulebreakers first its the Lost one, and then its the born one thats the difference.

The lost ones is like you and dont know what road to follow i tell you wich The main argonathroad where everyone Respect each other and the game together and where everyone is Equal to the game and rules!

When you find out my Purpose if this post and Its Meaning Forgiveness will Show up for sure

Peace
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 14, 2011, 03:44:24 pm: No offense, Tandtrollet, but did you ready anything of what I had to say? First of all, this is by FAR an unban request! There is a difference between an apology and an unban request you know. Regarding that fresh start... I did not mean it as something that can make me go undercover or something like that. I just said that as a response regarding my assets I owned back then, which has no meaning to me what so ever. I shall stop asking for forgiveness? Forgiveness is not what I want as the outcome of this. I am indeed saying sorry and showing responsibility for my actions... I guess, in your eyes that does mean that I admit what I have done? I do accept the punishment that I received, and I am not even asking for a second chance! I am just showing my respect to those who I affected back then even though it might be late now. Once again, if you read what I wrote you will clearly see that my intentions for this was not to gain an unban.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: IronHiDe on December 14, 2011, 03:51:24 pm: Apology accepted.
Your a really cool guy and i hope one day you get unbanned :)
Quote from: Murtaugh on December 14, 2011, 11:15:05 am
"Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from."
I agree with that
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Louis_Smith on December 14, 2011, 11:00:06 pm: well

i think ayden is a really cool guy and i never noticed something bad of him.

i hope you come back soon to argo ayden.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: [Rstar]Paul on December 15, 2011, 03:30:09 am: Welcome back :D
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Mr.Joker on December 15, 2011, 10:05:14 am: Yo Ayden, good to see you back man. ;)
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Eagle on December 15, 2011, 02:50:15 pm: Hey AYDEN!

Long time no see!
It's strange that your only unban request lasted for a few months and had no ending..?

Anyways, welcome back, dude! :banana:
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 15, 2011, 03:13:46 pm: Nice to be back :).
Well, if you much know... Nobody really came and replied to the unban request, so there was not really any reason for it remain open I guess... But I did write an apology to Aragorn over a PM, I guess that was a few days after the unban request got locked. I received this reply from him:

(http://oi44.tinypic.com/m9cbjb.jpg)

I thought he asked for the link of my unban requst topic, so that was what I sent him as a reply. Now, notice the date and time... Aragorn has not been on forum since then... And I have not really done much since until now where I chose to make this topic. That is also everything I can do, and I believe this is everything I will do.
Once again, I am not here for an unban. I am just trying to show my respect and tolerance for the community.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Shejken on December 16, 2011, 05:02:56 pm: Hi Ayden, nice to see you back. ;)
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Duel on December 20, 2011, 03:27:47 pm: Hey Ayden, its Pedro here.. :)

Could be great if we could celebrate Christmas together, you are still a great mate..

Those words from your heart man! Hope to see you soon! ;)
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Michele_Noord on December 20, 2011, 04:25:50 pm: Nice to see you back :D
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Daniel_Bradford on December 20, 2011, 05:06:08 pm: Welcome back!
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 21, 2011, 06:52:44 pm: I truly am grateful for all the kindness everyone. Means a lot to me.
Yeah, it could indeed be brilliant to celebrate Christmas together, but I guess that requires another one of those Christmas Miracles ;).
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Julio. on December 21, 2011, 07:27:57 pm: (http://memegenerator.net/cache/instances/400x/11/12173/12466088.jpg)
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: Ayden on December 23, 2011, 04:20:19 pm: I would like to thank everyone who I have heard from, especially those who have sent me a PM asking for my MSN which has led to great conversations. Nonetheless, thanks for keeping this topic open.
I would now like to request it locked for several reasons. Most importantly, I have managed to apologize to the public, and that's what matters the most to me. I know the procedure if I want to request an unban, but it just isn't the right time to do that. And I don't think it will be any time soon.
I have managed to get in touch with plenty of old buddies, and it felt great to have a chat with all of you no matter how long it lasted.
Thanks to everyone!
That being said, I would hereby like to request this topic locked.
Title: Re: Public Apology
Post by: [NP]Monte Montague on December 23, 2011, 04:58:49 pm: Quote from: joedaman633 on December 21, 2011, 07:27:57 pm
(http://memegenerator.net/cache/instances/400x/11/12173/12466088.jpg)

:DDDDD
Title: Re: [Requesting Topic Locked - Thanks] Public Apology
Post by: Zaila on December 23, 2011, 06:45:45 pm: Topic locked.