Goodblue you should try to control you emotions, but I am happy you are already sorry for the action and want to come back.
Sometimes there is a situation where you feel mistreated or words cause a misunderstanding between people. In such case you can react by telling you will leave, or you can choose to try and work it out. But if you tell you might be leaving, it will also be up to you to come back if there is the wish to work it out later. We are always here if you want to talk or work things out, but do not expect the main admins to run after you, even if they feel they lose a good person in you.
:ps:This is not just for Goodblue, but also for someone else. You know who you are.