Its been a little over 4 months since my mom passed.

[moneris0]

About a week ago m dad brought to my attention that its been 4 months lil more since my mom has passed, it just seems like yesterday I was hugging her. I know every day its gotten easier, I've realized this is the only life you've got why not live it. I think my mom would be proud, but she'd be tellin me to get my ass in gear a lil more. We're selling her car and van, I have to clean them out soon. Sometimes I feel like I completely look past how things make me feel just so I don't step on how my dad feels.

But he steps on the way I feel alot.. Like I can't stand hearing him talk about how we all turn into earth worms. I donno, I just feel differently, I'm really not sure how I feel about jesus and friends and all that. I think that we are amazing things to of been created and to have the abilities we have. I don't know if we go on to some place else, or if we'll be "Judge" why would we be... We were created to live, and to live life to the best of my or his or her ability. Judgment day my ass.


Though if we do go to some place like heaven I'm kicking that bitch in the ass as soon as I see her LOL!! Leave me with all this crap LOL
 

[Julian]

I'm really sorry for your mom. 

I've also wondered what happens after death, if you come to some other place and live a second life, or if everything just turn dark, but we won't know that before we die. We're living in a world gone mad, death is all around us, your mom is probably in a better place, the only way to recover from it is to let it go, and I'm sure she would be proud of you.

Hope you will feel better about it soon, may your mother rest in peace.