Time for me to go.. Thank you for confirmation.

[Mangus]

Hello dear people who bother reading,



I have read some of the "Good bai Argonath" topics here. Some is leaving because of trouble in school. Some is leaving because of trouble at home. Some is leaving because they are busy IRL. I am not leaving because of any of those reasons. I am not leaving because someone on the server made me angry/mad/upset. I am not leaving because I don't find it fun anymore. I am not leaving because I am addicted to it, and has to stop it.

So, why am I leaving? Well, good question.


I am.. special. Not in special as I need special help in school to manage my aggressions. Haha, no, nothing like that. I am special. It's a good way to say it. I joined here in Octobre '08. At first, it was fun to run around and kill everyone. Then Ghost and Inkognito and some other admins told me what to do, and I started playing by their rules. It was..  strange. I felt a little uncomfortable. I played by all the rules ( I think... ). I dislike being told to do things I know is useless. I am not lazy. And I am not bigheaded and refuses to follow orders. But, I thought of this. For five months, I have been playing. Playing behind this "mask". I joined Stracci. I made FlameMan and NitrOx talk like adult people. It felt good. I acheived something. The rookie did something. I was promoted. Consigliere. Sounds good. I acted like the Don. The boss. NitrOx was inactive, together with most of the people above me in the family. I was the king. I could talk, talk my ass out of things and manipulate people when necessary. I was told by Victor that I should train the new guys in the family. Cool, I thought. But, I am not pedagocial. The complete opposite. I started the training. Sure, it was fun. The things I have done have been fun.

But I thought from the start, as I always see things from different angles - What's the point? Back to the "rules and how-to-act" thing. I thought for it for long. And I think I finally found the answer. The answer is that I don't know. It took me five months to figure out that I had no idea. Good thinking. I am not planning on breaking any rules. It's good that you have rules. They restrict the idiots (excuse the rough words), from doing things they shouldn't do.


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Nothing what I wrote above means anything. Except the part where I mentioned I am special.

I am not seeking attention. You can delete this post in the same second you see that I posted it. I don't care.

I will give all my belongings to the Stracci. You were the guys who was the most amusing group. I am not letting anyone down. Or, it was not my point.

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I want to thank the whole Argonath. None said, none forgotten.

You have all made me realise something. At first, I thought was a megalomaniac. But I am not. I am not insane. But, I am not normal either.

I am not the one that people might see me as. I am 15 years old, IRL, that is true. I play the Piano IRL, that is true. Normal stuff. But, I am not normal. I am as far from normal you can ever come. I am not insane, I am not mentally unhealthy in any way. It's just that, I have problem writing the things I want to say in a gaming forum.

Emotions, those things I can't put on paper. I think, alot. I think about the meaning of life, I think about death, I think about how I would react if someone close to me died. I live in a true lie. Sounds weird, but that's the only way I can describe it.


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Again, thank you Argonath. Let's say, this was a little experiment. But it wasn't. It was more like a confirmation of a suspicion. And I confirmed it. I have started on another experiment. But it has nothing to do with this, and probably nothing to do with any of you who reads this either.

A special thanks to;

Stracci - The heart of the experiment. I know what I can do thanks to you, and thank you for that. I will give all my money to any of you (NitrOx, Ollie or Victor), and you can do whatever makes you happy.
Aragorn, Gandalf, Sauron & The rest of the Argonaths Administrators, Scripters and all the others - For creating this server. It has been a great opportunity, and thank you for that. It has kept me busy for five months, but I am done now. Thank you.


I probably wont talk with anyone of you after I am done dealing out all my stuff.

As the romans said when they left Rome - Good bye!


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PS: I am not kidding about anything. This has been fun, but it was merely an experiment. Again, thank you all who made it possible. You are human beings. Thats the best part of it.




Marco

[Oliver]

I kind of knew you were going to leave. We had our fun. Heck, we even joined Argo the same month.
Well. I guess there is nothing more for me to do than to rape you. Again.

[Wash]

Hmm.. I do not see the real reason, of you leaving.
I see you do have some fun, at times on the server.. But I do not understand why you are leaving?

Did you join this community to regain self confidence, did you join this community to overcome some obstacle, that stops you from progression in life?

Please can you explain further, I feel you were a good roleplayer and I would like a proper explanation to why you are leaving.

If it's private, I'd like to be PMed it on the forums.. thanks.

[NitrOx]

Marco,

It's sad to see you are leaving, but as a Friend I would like to say: good luck with everything.

-NitrOx.

[(tr)Ollie]

I'm sorry to hear Marco. You actually taught me some of the driving skills I use today to escape from the cops! Thanks for all the help and I hope we can still talk on MSN!

Your Mate

Ollie

[Scotty18]

Hey Marco...
Thanks for everything..
You teached me in the last 2 months and it helped me very much...

I wish you good luck for everything you want to do..

nice greetings Scat_Stracci

[Gandalf]

Good luck and if you ever want to experiment again, you are welcome.
Rules are not as much here as elsewhere, but without obeying rules you can not live and without rules there is no society.
One day when you return from living in the forest on your own, you will understand that.
 :pop:

[Malcolm]

Sad to see you go. But if that is what you want, goodbye and the best of luck.

[Mangus]

@ Wash; I know, I can't describe it very well either, but it's nothing with finding myself or "overcoming an obstacle". It was a test, and I needed people that I know didn't know me, the one I am IRL. It has been fun, a drama where everyone chose their own roles.

I am leaving because I am done. I did the thing I came to do. You were a part of it, just as everyone else on the server, and thank you for that.

I knew that everyone would act like people, and their character would mirror what kind of person they were IRL. It was very interesting, but it is done now. I hope you understand, but it wasn't just because I needed something to spend time on.

@ Gandalf;

Thank you, but I can't see myself coming back. I have probably interacted with around 100 people here so that I know their character, and it was enough. I want to thank you specially for giving the opporunity for me to join in on this server as anybody else. Thanks.

@ Scat&Ollie; Yes, thank you, good luck in your futures too.

@ NitrOx; Yes, good luck to you too. And remember, people are not who they seem. I am a living example of that.

@ Oliver; Yes, you were also a big part of my experiment. You remind me a bit of myself. Good luck with all you do.

@ Malcolm; Same to you, maybe I will meet you IRL sometime, as we live in the same country, but I am very sure that you would not recognise unless you had a picture of me and held it next to my face. Good luck in the future


@ Everyone else:


Thank you again for being a part of the "experiment". Keep on rockin' this server!



Marco AKA Magnus

[Matthew_Cipricla]

Well I will not be critical, because I myself was once in the Stracci family as Consigliere. But when I saw all the members I was raised in Stracci with, it put a hole in my stomach. But good luck with your future life. And I wonder if you got the heart to actually leave, cause veterans like you often stay because they know how great this community is. Either way, farewell.

[Alsatian]

Good luck for whatever come next for you, Mangus. 

[EliteTerm]

Good luck in the future, magnus. I hope you will view us as friends instead of some experment..

Goodbye, magnus, and hope you will come back sometimes in the future.

-Tommy Corleone

[Flash]

Too bad Marco  , But anyways good luck in the future.


Flash.

[Niall]

You are one of the few friends that i have in Argonath, i wish you the best in life and in finding yourself. I would like to know more about this experiment though as i am a little worried about you, if you want to talk, you have my msn.

You were truly one of the best members i have had, i think everyone will agree, you always listened to my orders and put a lot of time and effort into things, thanks for that.

[FlameMan]

Its so bad that you're leaving...
You are good guy

Thank you, that we could meet
Good luck in real life, and hop in here from time to time!

Sorry for bump, i didnt see that topic before, but i had to reply.