I am sorry... - Public Apologies

[FlameMan]

I never thought I will ever have to apologize, but it seems that it's gone way too far.

Before I took a break, I had wierd period in my life, being angry everyday, simply annoyed by everything what was crossing my way. That was stress and under influence of impulce I've done things which now I regret...
Everything started about winter break 2009. When I was supposed to have a break from school, stress etc. I've been working, learning on driving lessons and leading big charity action in my town. Every day I had many problems which I had to solve, as leader of my school's Student's council and leader of that charity action. I became more stressed and angry that I've ever been..
All these things were cumulating and I were more and more angry, until I crossed the limit... Then, after impulce I resigned from leader of school student's council position, but principal of my school after long talk refused to agree my resignation. He said that I am the best person in school to have such position, and that I should think twice and talk to him instead of writing letters with resignation.
After about 2 weeks, after horrible day, when I was also under impulce - I went to my principal and requested removal from School Council - then after another long talk he agreed. That's how I lost very, very important position for me, but it was not the end....

We can say that the worst part even started.. I felt "freedom" and started shouting at my teachers and annoying them by pointless comments. After few weeks, principal called my parents, because I shouted on vice-principal of school and left her office with smile on face... After that I had some wierd days when I was really, really relaxed and felt free from any problems, I have no idea why, maybe because I shouted-off my nerves and whole anger I had inside.

That situation from my real life had some mirror in Argonath, people probably noticed I've changed, became less mature and more angry. I was making wrong decisions, even as admin. After another impulce I decided to leave Argonath for a break, which will end soon, but the point of this topic is to apology.. who?

First of all, I would like to say big sorry to Aragorn... I've been biased in talks with you, thought that anything you want to do is directed against me, even although it was not right... I realised that I've been fooling myself and after any sentence from you, switching to kind of "defence" mode. I've said too much, too much things that were not true.. Sometimes I was writing something just to annoy you, even although I didnt agree with things which I was writing. I hope you will forgive me.

I would like to apology all my friends and players who felt signs of my anger ingame when I was making wrong decisions as admin or SAPD Commander.. I hope you can try to understand me, and after some time all will be back to normal.

I plan to be fully back about 15th May, but I will try to attend SAPD Public Meeting this friday.

Once again - I'm sorry, I'm really not the person who I looked like in last few months, I hope you'll forgive me.

[Wash]

I can understand, mate.

I think I should be seeing you soon, then.

[Fabio]

Hope to see you back soon Flame, your a good guy.

[Bianconeri]

cant agree more with above,

you are a great guy, most of the time nice(nobody is always nice)
you are a great SAPD Capt also, as admin you did a great job

the thing is to handle with your problems, and not to react it on others,
you see a lot of ppl here in Argonath also who cant handle problems,
and just ruin it all

[Altair_Carter]

That's the old FlameMan i knew from July 2008.....

Reading this story i understood why you became so strange. I didn't talked to you about it only because i thought something will "overpiss you off".

I also have to do a little sorry when you posted over MSN your "last message". Just that time i also had some issue in school (don't ask about it please) and i was so pissed off. I did cared about that.

Take care, everyone's life has to go through obstacles, but i know you'll handle it.

Good luck!

[Traser]

I now understand why you reacted a bit harsh ingame to me..
Good luck, glad to have you back

Your Friend.
Traser

[Nexxt]

Hey mate.

As you was always saying to me, there is only one people in [AV] who knows Nexxt the best it's me.
I don't know why, but for my feeling we build up as 'strange and special' friendship.

We have been flaming eachother, we have been being an asshole to eachother.
But everytime, every single time we fixed this in one day.
And you gave me another chance.

I have gone from AV member to [AV] Member Manager, and after that I got even promoted to [AV] Developer.
You trusted me, and I really liked the position.
But after some weeks, I flamed [WS]Salmonella and got kicked from [AV] and I started to being annoying to you.
Just because I didn't liked your decision, I behaved unmature and even made your feeling worser then it was already.
I am back in [AV] now, as you gave me ANOTHER chance.

I knew for a long time, some things were happening in your real life.
I asked you a lot times, if you wanted to give it some space to tell me.
I would make you feel better with it, I tried to be someone who listens to you and understand you.

I have also noticed you changed, and I started to getting annoyed from you.
Our friendship starting to fail more and more, I was even like.
I dont like FlameMan anymore, why should I talk to him
But I had also done things wrong.

When I was coming ingame, just 2 mins after you got banned.
I heard it in CB radio and I was shocked like hell.
I actually started to care again, I didn't want you to be banned.
I've said stupid things about you, I said I hated you, I said I didnt liked you.
I am really sorry, we both having trouble in RL, and we didn't made it easier for eachother.

You took a break, and I think it was a good decision.
I dont want you to stay away from your friends; AV members, ARPD guys, lots more and me (if you see it like this)
I really want you to come back, I really want you to forget OUR part in the past.
I hope we can start again and off-course, I will fully accept your apologies, if there were also ment to me.

FlameMan, I am also sorry.

[brainiac220]

I hope to see you soon ingame Flameman!!  :hurray:
PS: good luck with you're upcomming exam !! 

[battle]

I understand you flame, hope see you in-game whem i'm now and when

[Carbon]

Welcome back and if you need any help, ask me

[Que]

I'm happy to see that you're planning to come back. As I've always respected you and you've always been polite.
I know that real life issues can reflect your ingame behaviour, as I've been acting kind of strange myself before when I had drugissues and some other issues I don't want to talk about right now.. I really hope that you can fixx your life as it were before, and I hope that'll see you ingame soon enough! 

From a friend to another.

[Ben_Jizz]

Appologaly, Accepted. See you soon Flame!

[Dave]

Welcome back mate. Need anything, I'm here as always.

[pixy]

We'll be waiting for you to comeback buddy!

And remember "Keep moving forward" 

[Thomas 'Leroy' Crof]

Nice to see you're back soon