Depression

[[NP]Monte Montague]

I've noticed alot, that recently I've been suffering from many feelings of being down, gloomy, hopeless of the future.

I can say, yes, as I spend most of my time here, It has a considerable affect on my mood, almost every day.

I know there are admins working hard, like cutter, who was the best to me when I was very new, and still works hard now to offer support.

I think I am dipping into depression at a really slow rate, which personally, sucks a lot.


I've been brought to tears from a large range of things recently, which have , even know as I type this, I cannot help but remember all the crap , and shed the tears.

Peoples actions, feelings / opinions and bullcrap to me here, as-well as in  real life, having to go through surgery just yesterday which I came back home from and decided to relax on the samp server, but failed to do this, because of what has happened, really it wasn't much of a good choice for me to consider doing this, I regret it almost, it's all really not worked out for me, the surgery brought back horrid memory's / feelings of what I've delt with in the past, why I had to leave some groups on the samp server, and because of this, do not feel welcome back, the aspects I had for NinjaPie in the ArgonathRPG community, the group i wished to create and make successful - BCA, on the server, my Argo dreams and aspects, all have simply brought on this need to confront what Im having to go through.

I dunno what to do

[iMunna]

Please view this topic as it will give you hope that help is coming.

[[NP]Monte Montague]

Please view this topic as it will give you hope that help is coming.

It really hasn't. I've tried to let it, but until I can experience this, nothing.

But I thankyouf or your you know

[VANCEPLAYER]

ohh depression
i hate that word, i went throught it last year, man it sucked i felt gloomy and home sick at the same time, i went through this for months, until one day i realized that i needed to see my old friends so i went to see them and suddenly ALL my depression was GONE!
sometimes going back is what you need the most. hope you get over it man, i don't wish depression to happen to anybody.

[MrFrancis]

Do not loose hope. Always think of the bright side. Hope you'll get over it, Buddy.

[[NP]Monte Montague]

People want to create this environment were there is no hope.

So you must conform to it.
Post Merge: May 06, 2010, 10:22:07 amPeople hardly care about anyone these days.

Earlier I asked what 10-3 was, and was told to stfu, when I pm'd to get help, they said not to pm, then i asked why they were always rude towards me.

Admin banana me for 500 seconds , then when I saw a friend use /r, i worked out by then 10-3 was code for emergency only, I saw Vanessa talk in /r, i warned her in pm she wasn't supposed to, even though I'm a freecop, not ARPD, and do not have to follow the orders of ARPD captains, but still did, I reported the player who told me to stfu , admin did /on , still didn't tell me if he did anything.

I warned Vanessa, as a friend, and then an Admin warned me for provoking over pm.

didn't ruin my /ask stuff as Freinds like Vanessa  = cool and would help you.
Post Merge: May 06, 2010, 10:23:40 amI think this thread was brought on from continued bad days and those drugs they pumped into my hand in the hospital, and also from when I was abused and rather pissed off and felt let down.

[rJCaiG]

Thread locked due to false accusations and provoking...