Yeah. This is another depressing TL;DR directed towards the community I have wronged. If you don't like it, leave. There may be somewhat strong language here.
I'd like to start off by saying that I've been dragging my life like trying to push bullshit through thick branches. I nearly failed a language class that is my first and primary language that I have excelled in during displays of intelligence (though the grade has barely anything to do with language capabilities - more so your ability to do 50 projects over the course of one week...), grew an unwanted dependency to a drug that I normally only occasionally used as a mood booster in small amounts, and all kinds of shit. Ever since school ended, my step father took it upon himself to decide that I don't deserve it despite how much f**king work I put into just to hold my grade up enough to pass, therefore he has practically enslaved me. We're renovating, it's mid-summer, our weather is f**king retarded, and I'm a slave of the household. Hur-f**king-ray.
Not to mention, I've had my best friends stolen from me by my dickhead brother who decided to talk shit about me only to steal him. I turned my back for five seconds and I lose a friend because of an asshole's greed.
I'm sorry to say that I've become what I hate. I'm the asshole who takes out all of his real life problems on the people around him. I hate it when people do that. I guess you could say I've come to hate what I become. I took it out on some of you guys. Normally, I'm this happy-go-lucky guy without a care in the world. Lately, one little spark inflames the bullshit. Some of you, MANY of you might not have even realized it, but I had problems, guys. Lots. I've straighted up most things for now.
Now, for the more person apologies. Forgive me if I cannot remember all of you specific individuals. I've been an amnesiac for quite some time now, and although I'm almost fully recovered, I may not be able to remember everything. If I forget you, it's not because you're not important enough.
I'll start with you, Gird3r.
I've had my fair share of arguments with you. We have conflicting interests and it's just something not really worth fighting over. I called you names, disrespected you, and... heh, might as well have tried to shit in your mouth to keep you quiet, but man, I take it all back. I want to take it all back. I didn't mean to try to split your friendships or anything. Truly, you're a pretty good guy. The only thing I hate about you is you have a nearly perfected grasp of the English language - that's except for your "an" LOL! No offense intended, just a little inside joke.
Not too long ago, when I was in-game, I had a lovely roleplay with you. I loved the hell out of our Devil-worshiping roleplay. Yeah, that was me. Xivilai_Gvardia. I got a good taste of old-school roleplay. It sucked for our characters that we were on the losing side of the holy vs unholy war, but it was still fun as hell trying to murder Father Bastard. We should expand that roleplay to some sort of cult or whatever.
By the way, that wasn't me trolling you on YouTube. I shared my account with some douche bag who likes to crash my reputation. He no longer has access and he is no longer a friend of mine.
Grz(insertrandomlyplacedcharactershere)
To be honest, I don't really like the way you try to get your points across. I've always come to think of you as an asshole, but the truth is, you're not. Away from the arguments and all the other bullshit, you're a playful, cool guy. And I like that. I like guys who can leave the day behind and just relax. I'm sorry I came on so hard to your tactics so hot-headedly.
Second to last, certainly not least, Aragorn.
Man, you and I have been anything but friends. We were either neutral or below. Our interests conflict severely, but when your fuse isn't sparked, you're also a pretty cool guy. Believe it or not, you're one of those guys I'd sit with around a table, with my feet up on there drinking some sort of our favorite beverages just chilling and chatting about the days gone by. I don't know where to start for you. I've wronged you so many times. For example, my recent forum ban. I did nothing but piss you off beyond belief. I can't do anything about the past, and the most I can say is I'm sorry.
And lastly, absolutely not least, the server as a whole.
I'm sorry I can't list all of your names specifically. I've always been bad at putting names to faces (shit, there was this one time where this girl came out of nowhere and told me her name, Ellie, though I FORGOT HER FACE! SHE WAS SO HOOOT), and with the added time factor and a sprig of amnesia, that just makes it even worse. I guarantee I've wronged more of you, but I can't tell you why, how, and when. This may sound half-assed, but the very most I can do is say I'm sorry for whatever I've done to any of you guys personally.
Will I be back? I don't know. It's up to those who do the unbanning. I hope I can meet some new friends and hopefully start over for those I have wronged. Wish me the best of luck, for I do the same for you.
~Leon/Öivilai
Post-edit: Something I forgot to mention. I'm done arguing on the forums 24/7. It's done nothing but lead me to trouble and make me look like a dick.
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