A wise captain goes down with his ship yet he does not take his ship down with himself.
The best advice I have for you right now is to get over yourself, clean up your act and move on, whether that is helping Stracci grow further or letting a loyal member carry on the tradition.
..additionally: NitrOx, you
was a great leader. As much as you don't have time for Argonath anymore, or do not wish to be part of the community; at least let your group continue without you. Many of your members, notably Scott, Ints and Danny have stayed loyal without you. It'll be a shame to see another group I was part of shut down.