Nice to see you coming back.
You were and still are a real example for me and many others, I have learnt many things from you. It's really hard to change yourself as you said, but you will get what you want at the end.. I don't know what happened with you, but I believe it was a mistake that can be corrected. As everyone else. Everyone do faults, the important is to learn from it. Though, it is easy to say, but hard to do. I believe that If we keep standing when failing, we can correct them and change to better and much better. Even if it takes a long period for that. The real failure is to give up, attempts after failing will bring the success. I have seen in my life many people who were really bad in attitude to others, but they've changed themselves to the better and now if someone tells you how they were in the past, you won't believe him.
I hope to see you back in IV:MP, we really miss you there. Welcome back!