I gave you too much rope to hang yourself, eventually when you jumped off the bridge you hit the ground. I handled you with far more leniency than you should expect from any admin, especially with the history of personal ddos threats and what not.
If you find the amount of time you've been banned so far harsh, I really have no idea what you expect. We already gave you more chances than most people with your punishment record and we are still considering if you can be unbanned, but so far you're saying you know what you've done and you seem to be sorry that you got caught pants down, instead of actually being sorry for what you did on the server and to other players of the server.