I do take it serious! Just P L E A S E unban me!!!

After so many attempts of getting myself unbanned I decided to change my point of view and take a moment to consider the current situation. I realized I need to approach differently than simply begging for unban. I was banned back in the summer of 2017, which means it was two months ago. For these two months I had enough time to think of what I have done wrong and to hopefully change to better. We all know what I did, I don't want to say it, because I am ashamed of that... I want to have fun with the people I met there, because this game.. this server more or less changed my life in some kind of ways. I've been playing in the server since 2017 and when I remember all the things that I've done, all the good moments which happened, all those sleepless nights, all those good old roleplays.. it feels so nostalgic and soo sad in the same moment. I met so many people, so many friends from my country, which I'd had never known about & would had never seen if it haven't been the server. Anyways, well back then - in the summer of 2017 I was 12 and was pretty much still a kid in his mid teen years. People make mistakes especially kids, thats why we are humans - we do mistakes and we learn from them. I've done something really bad two years ago and I've realized that I have offended someone, I really do. I don't want want to look for excuses of myself, because I did this dumb thing and I couldn't bring the time back to change it. I just had a different mindset back then. Now - I'm almost 13 years old & I know words can actually hurt someone and that we have to be careful what does out of our mouths. I want to apologize for my acts and for offending another human being, I wouldn't feel good if I get offended neither, so please forgive me. Just the thought that I did something that hurt somebody's else feelings and that I couldn't say face to face "I'm sorry!".. eats me from the inside. I just want to be given another chance to show you that I have understood my mistake and to get back to the server. One last shot.. One last shot to prove myself. Every single letter that I've wrote to apologize, my unban requests - this is ME from the bottom of my heart! The thing I've done is something unacceptable, but when you acutaly start growing up, you realize how life goes.. And after everything I've done to come back to the server and everytime I got denied, I still have the same desire and hope to come back one day. I have done this long time ago and now I must say that I've learned of myself & that I'm actauly not a bad person... :/ I hope you give me one last chance and forgive me. Thanks for reading. : )