I`am Sorry

[Serpico]

Small amount of people only knows whats going on so i am trying to explain everything with this topic. It seems people are still confused why i arent admin anymore and why were i banned. Why i arent admin anymore is that why because i resigned from the adminstration team and did not get kicked from it, i did it because for last half year i been trying to give my best to fix a problem in server but i had no help by anyone else to handle it and a some week ago i ran out of power and hope and started to be inactive and moved to another game a little bit. I was away from Argonath for one or one and half week to think about my final decision that what do i really think and what should i do, i decided to resign and leave temporarily Argonath. After some day from my resignation and leaving i heard that the problem is going to get under work and adminstration team gives more time for the situation and then again i didnt know what should i do. I will explain the problem of mine also, its about fighting between players and it seemed that none actually ever thinking anymore what they doing. People like thinking that they do have advantage over other player with everything and they dont think about their actions and about what they say, all i saw in main chat was fighting and arguement as actually the main chat isnt for it. In this case i am not accusing or complaining anybody personally and this problem is not only around usual players its even around adminstrative and i am not complaining about the server, its just there is somethings what are leave behind and hasnt done.

 I think thats all about my resignation side now i would like to explain why i got banned and apologize about it.

So i returned to server while i wasnt having in a good mood i dont want to moan in here about how things goes in my life but i am having a real real hard time in my life for a year now and things wont stop ( I wouldnt say thats the only reason i got banned for ). So i was playing in a server and i got out of myself by someone action and i got real pissed off and started to do things i actually shouldnt and while i was having in bad mood it helped me more to get pissed off because of the situation. Ofcourse this doesnt explain my actions and i actually cant charge anyone else on it but still i  feel like its not all my fault. I got banned from the server for Deathmatching and next day i got a chance and got unbanned. I returned to server and tried to start everything from the start and leave the problems behind but i wasnt still enough ready to return i was laying on the ground ingame and cops started to drive over me with their bikes and again that got me pissed off and i opened fire on them and we started a chase. Administators started to keep my eye on actions and in one moment i got banned for ban evading wich i swear i didnt and never had done and i heard that they accepted the fault. Then again i didnt undestand why they didnt do something else but have changed my ban reason for constant rulebreak ( And still doesnt ) and i started to complain about it and i found my fault that i shouldnt had to shoot on the cops for that and ofcourse my attitude wasnt acceptable.

Now i have seriously think about it what have i done and i have honestly sorry about that and i would like to apologize and hope to see peace with other players again. As i see there is still some people that have forgiven me about this and i aprecciate it very very much because this what i done cant be forgetten. Right now i am trying to think that should i stay or should i leave but atleast i got back into myself and pulled myself together but still i need to take some time in Argonath to make peace between me and other players and earn my trust back and even when i do leave Argonath i cant leave as hated person and leave things non explained and completed behind. I think thats all for now.

Thanks for reading, I am sorry.

[Janar]

Ok, now i know what happened to you.
IRL first, then games

Good luck

[ALS]Janar

[Nexxt]

Hai there Pups.

I know u have a bad RL, u never told me all but that is no problem.
I tried to be there for u, but I f*cked up my help by asking your comet is u leaves.
Sorry for that, It was really bad to as your comet :P .. But thats my dream to own a comet.

But about you, you are a great guy, and u was one of the best admins I know.
U was doing well and u was extremely against the word noob what in your opinion does not exist,
I have to see u are right. There are things going on a bad way.

When u came in server while having a bad mood, u was wrong. U always told me when I had a bad mood I had to leave.
I also PMed you, but u ignored me. I dont care about that, I understand how it is to play while in a bad mood and everyone tries to help u.
But u dont want to get helped at that moment, u only want the shit in RL stops, IG dont matter.
I know how u feel, but thats a wrong though. While having shit IRL , u could use 'not very well known' people to talk about it.
It's not that personal as you will tell to your friends IRL and u also get an place where to tell all.
I've told u, u could always talk with me. I have also get the loads of shit IRL over me.

And still, this didnt changed u. I still liked u, because u also got some good moments.
Even while in that very bad mood, u tried to get it cool and I really liked that Pups.

Now u are calmed down, and though about things. And Im happy u realised what u've done.
But I dont need to change my view on you due that.

I will never forgive u, because I had nothing to forgive.
U never flamed me, disrespect me, u always stayed in my mind as a good friend.
And not as how u did, because I KNEW this wasnt how u are.

And a not on the I wont forgive u, that was positive !


Hope to see u back IG fast and Im sorry for asking ur comet :P

[ToniaNVR]

i was laying on the ground ingame and cops started to drive over me with their bikes and again that got me pissed off and i opened fire on them and we started a chase. Administators started to keep my eye on actions and in one moment i got banned

why didn't you make screens so those retards would get suspended?

[The_Wolf]

Apology accepted.
You never lost the respect you had in my eyes, Pups.

[Matthew_Mcbride]

If its not too personal/confidential may I ask what was the problem you were trying to fix on the server?

[Niall]

Apology accepted.
You never lost the respect you had in my eyes, Pups.

Same

[Serpico]

If its not too personal/confidential may I ask what was the problem you were trying to fix on the server?

If you could read the topic you find a answer

[Matthew_Mcbride]

First of all, look at your posts :p Spooky

Second of all.. I don't see it ..

[Serpico]

Thanks for comments, i do aprecciate it.

[Gandalf]

Pups what happened to you is somehting I have seen happen to others as well.
Sometimes the RL things just get too much, and you can not even relax doing what is normally the way out of them.
After the second ban, I knew that the only thing to do was to keep the ban on until you were ready and had pulled yourself out of the hole you were sitting in.
It was not about the actions that pissed you off, it was your response that was scary for all who saw it.

That does not change the respect I have for you and your work.
And is has grown when I understood that you have managed to pull yourself out this fast.
Even if you still feel shaky, it seems you are already getting back in shape.

I wish you good luck for the real life things, lets hope that the bad times will balance out by good times in the near future.

[Bianconeri]

Apology accepted.
You never lost the respect you had in my eyes, Pups.

same, you always were a great admin respected by all, except ppl who got banned/kicked by u
i see lots of ppl getting RL problems, the thing is u should get DM server to release it,
not a RP server.

last week when u came back u acted really different then normal, i was changing my mind then,
u were driving almost nuts that time,
i hope u can calm down, and get DM server to release the problems,

when i hate something i just get a shooter game too release my anger on those stupid enemy,
it works

[Shifter]

Pups what happened to you was just something that can effect people and unfortunately it hit you pretty badly.
Apology accepted, good luck with all this stuff and if you ever need to talk, feel free to add me on msn and talk about anything you want.

[Otavio_Folha]

Pups, my real friend.
What happened to you was totally acceptable (at last for me). As Gandalf said, sometimes the RL things becomes too much, and make us do things that we don't want to do. It almost happened to me once, but I stayed inactive for a while.
You know that I always accepted your apology, and I still accept. You are my friend, and I understand your situation. Also, we all know that you'r an intelligent guy.
You teached me most things I know about business, you'r my mentor, my boss, my father, and the most important thing, my friend.

I pray to your RL thigs become better. You desirve it.
Thank you, Sam, for everything!

[Jserg]

Apology accepted , You are always the same Pups for me, you have helped the comunity a lot