((I have not read all of the post so i do not know if this came up or not .if so It is just a saying))
Look People hateing Gay/bi e.t.c It is a waste of time cause most of the time the people that say that they are gay is just one set.But there are people that are 1. Gay and did not tell anyone. 2. People that are turning Example is You friends might had been dumped and start spending time with Thier friends and then start to like to see them in a gay point.So people that you talk to might be gay. But i am straight .
This I think is absolutly true! And there is still a significant amount of people out there who are gay/bi but just pretending to be fully straight..
Heck, I remember in the news a few months ago of a celebraty of someone who pretended to be straight all his life, had a wife, had kids etc.. (woah.. now thats gotta be hard), then later on, when he was like 50 or something he told his wife that he is actually gay
Talk about shocks.. lol, I just feel sorry for these people.
But, tbh guys, if I wernt at Argonath I proberly woulnt have come out to myself either, maybe ide still be living a 'straight life'.. still pretending to be straight, blocking those thoughts.. supressing them. It was with the help of one guy, [R*]Austin, that helped me come to terms with my sexuality and I thank him more than I can possibly imagine, because seriously.. those were hard times.
Before I turned 14, I still knew I was 'different', even since I was 7/8, but deep down, I just wanted to be the same as everyone else.. So what did I do? I kept those thoughts to myself.. supressed them (thats a really bad thing to do to yourself, seriously). I did that for years and years.. until I was 13 and I began to rethink these thoughts.. I just really wasnt sure of myself. What I knew was that this thing that was happening, was certainly not a phase or anything.. this feeling just kept growing.
I met Austin on SAMP and we became good friends etc etc (Long Story LOL), but he will always remain a good friend to me, and we talked, on and on for hours. He helped me rethink myself. And as I found out that more and more people at Argo were gay/bi, It really did hit me that I woulnt be 'the only one', for real life, let alone Argonath. As well as his help, I did alot of YouTubeing and Googling on this whole topic of LGBT. I learned alot, and from the help of an (AWESOME) guy on YouTube called Trayce Shaw I learned even more!
In August of 2008, I finally came out to myself, a few days before my 15th birthday, I was the most happiest I had ever been in my life.. weirdly. I was typing in block capital letters on the MTAVC server 'I FEEL GREAT!', and everyone was like 'err...', lol. It was like.. a huge feeling I had surpressed, I could finally release.. all that pressure, gone! But well, I had only come out to myself, and Austin, no one else yet.. but I didnt care at the time, that was something else I had to worry about...
Well thats my story, I kinda draged on abit.. oh well :razz:
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