I understand its a hard time for you, but you are one of the groups which set boundaries on RP. You just cannot vanish like that. You would be bailing out on the whole community. Think of it. Being a leader is a hard job and it brings new challenges daily. Until you get unbanned, players can survive. They will show how strong as a group they are. Headless(Without leadership) but still strong and walking. I wish you best of luck on your unban, and I sympathize with you, I feel that you are sorry for your acts and you are ready to redeem yourself. There are good times, but there are bad times also. Stick to the memories, what happened, what could happen, and what is yet ahead of you.
Kind regards, Tyrell White.