After having a long talk with players and admins together, i am not leaving permantly, but i am taking a long extended break.
my views on this server are comepletely justified, but they wont get fixed if i leave, the people i talked to set my perspective right and helped me calm down.
so in the mean time i do wish you all good luck, i dont know how long i will be gone, could be a week could be a year, im unsure at this point.